October 29, 2020
Marlon woke up the morning and needed to use the washroom. Good thing he did as Paco was late getting up for work. I woke him up just as his alarm clock went off (set for wrong time). The usual morning nausea for Marlon. I am surprised he still feels sick in the morning since treatment has temporarily stopped.
The origami butterfly had him stumped yesterday. We each did one today.
After lunch Keagan came for a visit. We went for a walk and then they hung out for a while. Es and I collected greens and talked.
Two days in a row we had visitors. What a treat.
Marlon is always tired by the evening but thank goodness he is sleeping well. This evening he was quite emotional with a lot of tears. He feels he has lost so much. Lost a lot he holds dear, his physical strength, endurance, flexibility, and speed. He thinks ahead and sees more treatment, more discomfort. While I tried to remind him how far he has come and that he can be like he was before, he was feeling quite disheartened. So sad to see and once again I am reminded that while I am here with him I really don't know what it is like to be inside his body or his head. I know so little of what it is really like for him. I want to let him have his emotions and I want to make it all better.
Before I started on supper tonight we went outside and took human/tree photos for Moira's birthday today. A bit late getting around to it and Paco wasn't available.