Lovingheart

We had some extra milk so tried to make pudding.  I don't have corn starch so used arrowroot and tapioca.  It was getting hot but not thickening so we added more and then all of a sudden we had glue.  Heavy goop.  Quite gross actually but Marlon thought it ok though it took him a long time to eat through a little. Supposed to be butterscotch but I would call it a fail. Especially at the beginning of his illness, Marlon didn't want to hear any conversations about medications or procedures.  With the puppy being sick, he is the same way.  He doesn't want to talk about her, see her, or hear anything about what's going on with her. The vet doesn't know what is wrong so time will tell.

After working today, I rushed home to run out the door again.  There was a picnic with a group we haven't done much with in years but I thought it would be fun to see them again.  I tried to convince Marlon to come along with me but he was playing Minecraft with friends.  It was probably better for me he didn't come along as he would have been pestering me to leave.  There were kids of all ages, I got there at the end, and he likely wouldn't have connected.  I appreciated seeing a lot of great people I hadn't seen in years. While I was making supper, Marlon created a 'board game' on paper for us to play.  He was feeling fine and I noted he hasn't had his anti-nausea pill.  Next thing I knew he was very nauseous and then threw up.  Poor guy, it doesn't take much. Little puppy is being taken care of.  She still isn't feeling better and may see a vet tomorrow (she saw a horse vet today).  Out of the nine puppies, five have gone to their new homes.  Now

The timing of my eye accident was somehow meant to be.  I have often mentioned audiobooks but I have been taking a self-imposed break from listening to books and podcasts.  I have listened to the occasional one when Marlon wants to do so together.  Had I been listening to something it would have changed the dynamics of the closed-eye sitting time but realistically the pain would have been a distraction from listening.  Coincidence or not. My other thought was about proper bending.  The stem stabbed my eye because I bent over from the waist.  Had I bent my knees and squatted, it wouldn't have happened.  And I had just finished watching work-based e-learning about proper lifting.  I wasn't lifting but same idea. Big stress today.  One of the puppies is not well.  Even bigger stress for us as she is our puppy.  Hoping she will be ok. Marlon's arm continued to heal until bedtime when he gently leaned against the stair railing and reactivated all the pain.  Hopefully, it will ea

At the hospital the other night, the doctor said eyes heal fairly fast, from 2-5 days.  When I mentioned I was working Thursday, he looked dubious and said he could give me a note.  I said no, I'd be able to work.  And I was.  And today my eye feels so much better.  I am grateful and relieved.  It is still scratchy but the pain is mostly gone. Marlon's arm is still sore and he was frustrated having only one.  I had to tie his shoelaces, help him change his t-shirt, put his sweatshirt on, and much more.  He can't even lift his water glass.  But he can play Minecraft as he only needs his fingers and for that he is happy.  Because it is his left arm, he was also able to do some math. A nice-looking mushroom growing in the grass.  My mom knew a lot about edible mushrooms but I do not so I just took a picture and let it be.

Before last year, Marlon had participated with the Guelph Outdoor School.  His Mondays were spent outside with other kids.  A while ago when I asked him if he would consider it again, he was not ready to.  Last week I mentioned it again and he was interested.  I like the idea of him spending more time outside and away from devices so I was happy he was willing to try. Today was his first day and both Thomas and I were wondering how he was doing.  A big step. I dropped Marlon off and then continued on into Guelph.  First time driving since hurting my eye and it was hard.  My eyes couldn't handle the light.  I never wear sunglasses but I bought some today and they were a lifesaver.  In the afternoon, I heard from the leader of the group, saying that Marlon had taken a fall and hurt his wrist.  He was very upset so I went right over to pick him up.  He was still sobbing and crying.  So many bad things happening and he couldn't take it.  And Minecraft is the best thing in his life

As I'm going through the day, doing as much as I can with my eyes closed, Marlon says to me, 'Mom, you're not an invalid, you still have one good eye'.  My response was that my eye is getting tired.  But when I went outside for a bit I realized the truth of it.  When my left eye moves so does my right, even if it has a patch on it, and when it moves, it hurts more In the garden yesterday, I bent down to pick something but the bean stem got me in the eye.  Ouch.  I did the dance of pain for a while and then figured it might hurt for a bit but would be ok.  I still had three hours before work. The pain did not ease up, just felt worse.  I lasted 45 minutes at work before curling up in a ball and asking Thomas to come pick me up.  I needed a ride in because I was unable to drive or bike. So Paco took me to emergency in Guelph.  I was told they had an opthalmologist on call.  Marlon stayed home with his dad. As my brother Peter will be thrilled to hear, I have had a lot of