It’s going to be a long 24 hours
I am reminded of this big-time as the days have seemed to be crawling by at a snail’s pace for PM as he anticipates Christmas. Yesterday as he was bouncing off the walls I figured it was going to be a loooonnnngggg 24 hours. And yes it was. Sometimes he was ok but a lot of the time it was non-stop talking about the gifts, talking about what he was going to do, planning how things were going to be and of course asking how much longer till dark and till dinner.
Somehow it seems anticlimactic. That excitement that has been growing for well over a month and the big dinner and the presents and mess and then it is over – well sort of, as there are of course some other things saved for Christmas morning.
I guess that’s just part of being a kid. And it reminds me of how I have downplayed many events in my life as they approach for fear they won’t turn out the way I would like and because I don’t want to be let down.
For myself I find Christmas a more lonely time of year. I remember feeling lonely on many a Christmas when it was just me and my parents and all of our celebrating was over. We would go for a walk together but my siblings and friends would all be off doing other things with other people and I ‘only’ had my parents. And here I am an adult with her own family and it is just us and I still feel extra lonely at this time of year. Ha – there was a time when I had no compassion for those that felt lonely. If you feel lonely because of others you just need to create a better life on the inside. It comes back at ya!
I do appreciate the excitement and joy of the kids. It brings out more of that desire to do what I can to make their lives fulfilling in so many ways.